Oct 31, 2012

So... I'm excited...

I promise, my post about my recent trip to Minneapolis is on the way.  It will be a little delayed though, because of a very last minute trip to...

M  I  R

That's right, thanks to a few friends, I'm going to be able to make it for my first ever Mister International Rubber!  On top of my post about my Minneapolis trip, I'll have a couple of juicy posts about my first MIR!  Until then, keep a close eye on my Twitter feed, as there will certainly be some fun updates there as well!

Thanks to the awesome friends of mine who are helping me make this possible!
I love you guys!

Oct 22, 2012

Thoughts on Chastity

Over the past couple of months, I've begun to contemplate my position on chastity.  Don't worry, I still love it!  What has thrown me for a loop however, is my enjoyment I get out of holding keys.  As this blog has probably made quite clear: I am submissive by nature.  This includes chastity.  I enjoy giving up control to a worthy key holder.

While I consider myself completely submissive, I have been known to switch in the past.  This is largely due to a lack of true Doms in my past.  Without Doms, subs have to improvise.  The show must go on!  But even now, with a number of great guys in my life, many of whom are Doms, I find that I enjoy being on both sides of chastity, even if it means I'm the key holder.  In fact, I have two boys locked as I write this.  But why?  I've found that there's really no one answer to this question.

I believe that one reason can be related to my interest in bondage, but not in the way that chastity is a form of bondage.  Of course, I love to be bound.  But when I'm not in some kind of bondage, I still enjoy seeing someone else in such a situation.  That said, part of why I enjoy holding someone's keys is because I like seeing others enjoy chastity, and I'm happy to help them truly lose that control.

Another reason was given to me by my friend, Fossil9.  He suggested that the key represents something to the sub.  I hadn't thought of this, but I agree completely with the idea.  Just as a lock symbolizes something that is unobtainable, the key to a lock symbolizes control of whatever it is that may or may not be obtained.

Lastly, as much as I hate to say it, I suck at chastity.  I say this because I've found that I'm very good at pulling out of devices.  (And no, I'm not getting a PA).  I really dislike being able to get out of the devices I own.  Unfortunately, it would take a full belt to truly lock me up, which is far beyond my budget.  I also wonder about the possibility of living in a full belt in regards to hygiene, comfort, and safety.

All of that said, whether I'm locked or I have someone else locked, chastity is just a good, frustrating time.  While I'm on the subject, I'd like to give a shout out to the two boys I currently have locked, one of whom has done a very good job as he approaches the 6 month mark of his 14 month sentence.  He will soon be celebrating this by switching his device from the cb6000 to the shorter cb6000s.  Wish him luck!

Oct 16, 2012


Once upon a time, a young kinkster finally got the opportunity to push himself into the world of kink. That kinkster was me. Just over a year later, the cycle has come full circle. This past weekend, I was able to be on the other side of things and help welcome a new kinkster into the community, who was once in my shoes. I'm happy to say that this new guy was none other than my boyfriend.

A while back, I posted about him leaving town to pursue the next chapter in his life. You can read about that here.  As much as I hated the fact that he was leaving, I was happy for him and supported his decision to start the rest of his life.  He moved away for work, but recently accepted a new job in a new city.  Imagine my excitement when he told me that city was Minneapolis!  I was thrilled to finally introduce him to my friends whom he had heard so much about.

I'd like to give a huge thanks to all of you guys for making him feel so welcome and like a part of the family!  It means so much to both of us!  And a personal special shout out to him:

Welcome to the family!  I love you!

More on the weekend in Minneapolis coming soon!

Oct 7, 2012

Year One

I was excited.  I hopped in my car and started driving towards an adventure that I never could have expected. It was an adventure that I could have only dreamed of. The two hour drive to my friends house was uneventful.  In fact I arrived early, so I had to kill some time in his driveway while I waited for him to return home from work.  The weather was nice, but a storm darkened the distant sky.  After he returned home and packed for the weekend, we headed out.  By that time, a light rain and started.  By the time we hit the interstate, the winds had picked up and the rain was dumping.  This is when the excitement began to mix with a little nervousness. We came across an unexpected toll, which delayed us slightly because neither of us had change.  The rain was still coming down, but it was much lighter.  The heavy rain had been replaced by much stronger winds.  We found the place without too much trouble and parked downstairs.  We quickly got out and gathered our belongings to run for shelter in the covered stairwell.  Without hesitation, we began to climb the stairs, to be met half way up by a small group of guys.  We had arrived at Palm Coast, knowing we were in for an amazing weekend, but not knowing the impact that weekend would have on our lives.

That was exactly one year ago today.

The weekend that followed, described here, was the beginning of several friendships, which in turn, would lead to more friendships and the most amazing experiences of my life.  And it all started one rainy evening in October.

Since then, with the support and encouragement of my kinky family, I've broken out of my shell and travelled cities I could once only dream about visiting.  I've made friendships that I could once only dream about having.  I write this post as a thank you to those who were there that weekend as well as all of those who have shown such incredible love and hospitality to me as I began my journey deeper into this community.

Thank you all so much!  I'll see you in a few days in Minneapolis ;)